Dear fellow Blogger, Quilter, or poor soul who stumbled onto this funky blog titled Pink Doxies:
2015 year is winding down, and some of us feel the need to finish up loose ends. While wrapping up projects, I'm pleasantly surprised to see my work has come full circle.
The Brief Explanation of Blogging
We start a blog with the intention of showing what we do, and because it draws us out of ourselves to write, photograph, and creatively produce it, it begins to show, and even perhaps defines who we are. We see our true selves mirrored in our posts. That leads us to the existential questions such as...
Who am I?
What am I doing?
What do I stand for?
and on to...
Do people like my work?
Do they like me?
Do I like me, the person out here?
Am I making a difference?
Am I growing?
Where am I going?
Is it the right direction?
...and so on, and so on.
This piece was one of the first I worked on as a new blogger. The soft finish, or final piecing, was just 12 weeks into my blogging career, and from there on it sat on a shelf. The work was intense and heartfelt, but it was nothing like I was seeing in the blogging world. Modern Improv Top Assembled.
The need to be accepted as a blogger was perhaps stronger than the need to express who I was. It took many projects over long months for me to finally say, "I am terrible at making cute things." And by this I mean, my heart isn't in things that tend to be symetrical, mainstream, or warm and fuzzy. I have friends who are amazing at making those things, and I admire them, but it's not my thing. I want to make things that make me crazy-happy, laugh out loud, or bring tears to my eyes while I'm making it. I need to passionately feel my work, and not make something I may only be pleasantly okay with.
In turn, this means that the work I make and love is not likely to be equally loved by most people. I'm okay with that. They may even hate it, but I'm just as well okay with that because I know they have an emotional response to it, just not the same as I do. I only wish my work could convey more about how I felt while I was making it.
It's not about the finished piece
as much as the process.
Does this mean I don't value someone else's work that has ____ in it? (I'll be villified for anything I insert, so feel free to guess.) Certainly, Yes! I value their work, but I value their process even more.
We should all make what we love,
not what makes other people happy or like us.
"Just because I like something at one point in time doesn't mean I'll always like it, or that I have to go on liking it at all points in time as an unthinking act of loyalty to who I am as a person, based soley on who I was as a person. To be loyal to myself is to allow myself to grow and change, and challenge who I am and what I think. The only thing I am for sure is unsure, and this means I'm growing, and not stagnant or shrinking."
A Portion of My Original Work from
and above all have fun!"